Recent Events

So..

I'm still waiting to be able to take my Clomid I have been prescribed by my Gynecologist.

Its a long and scary road to what might not happen and I'm FREAKING out!! 

The thing that scares me the most is not knowing what the future will bring and if Jason and I are going to be able to have our little mini addition to our family, and if it will,

My biggest question is...

WHEN?

And will my body even be able to accommodate a baby seeming the things that are wrong with me, I just afraid  I will not be able to have a child and these negative thought are not exactly increasing my chances but yet I can't stop the feeling or my fucked up thoughts (excuse the language guys).

I'm at the point in my life where the trying part is no longer "fun" and the waiting part is horrible.. And again when will the waiting end???

I just hope that good news will come my way soon!!

❤